Showing posts with label Random. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Random. Show all posts

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Seasonal


Soft kisses tracing lip lines

along the latitude of your spine

That bliss,

like warm weather makes

my waist wind in anticipation, that

Heat

that comes from the bottom and

flushes my face red in the excitement

Of what could be,

that wondering if what you are working with works with me

That desire to feel you,

to be filled with the fruit of what comes when winter ends

That breaking of the ice leading into the breaking of back, branches bending

And snowfall is the happy ending, and when it melts

The rain falls

Summer comes again

Saturday, October 22, 2011

Who Wants to be a....Model?

Tyra Banks has, with a handfull of producers and "celebrities", ruined a generation of beautiful women. Ok, that statment is a bit much, but with the success of her "America's Next Top Model", a good amount of the "pretty girls" in the world have determined that they are "destined" for modeldom. What's worse is, she has also brainwashed the "not so cute" and even "downright ugly" girls that that awkward feature on their face, or their face in general, is the new "it", causing thousands upon thousands of girls to really think that "All of my life, I wanted to be a model!". Sorry lil homie. This "remembrance" has been planted, and your chances are slim.

It is rare that you visit a social networking site such as Facebook or Twitter, or Myspace, whatever the kids are using these days, without running into a "model". Some are very pretty girls, with a lot of potentital potential. And some are not. Model is the female version of a rapper. By this, I mean its that job that when you ask what someones profession is and they answer you seriously, you more than likely:
  1. Say, "Oh, ok."
  2. Shake your head in disbelief/nod as though you get it
  3. Laugh
  4. Say, "Are you serious?"
    or
  5. All of the above.

Before you are, by myself and most others, to be considered as a "real" model, there are some things you should have in your possession or on your person.

Just becasue someone has called you pretty does not mean you have the potential to be a model.  Just becase someone, with no professional training in model talent, tells you you should be a model, does no mean you have the potential to model.  If you have what it takes, and you do plan to invest your time, energy, money, and life into this, then go for it.  But if you are just another pretty face, think of other ways to model.  Be a model citizen. Do good in your community and not jsut for the sake of being noticed.  Exhibit model behavior- let what you say portray the person you really feel you should be.  Become a role model-Our youth are quickly becoming corrupted as what is seen on tv and heard on radio is being taken as reality and what life is all about. 

Thursday, June 23, 2011

Its been a long, long time coming

Been back a full year now. All of my enlightenment is now Americanized, all over again. Always a sense of urgency, always a need to connect, to reach out. For this, I miss Korea. I'm sure a lot of people feel like I am further away now then I was when I was in Korea, and I know some take it personally. I guess with the distance, people didn't EXPECT to hear from me, so when they did, it was a treat...Now that I am back, it is an expectation that iCommunicate. And iTry. More often, tho, I forget. or just don't feel like it...and since when is that a crime? I don't think it is, but don't forget...its a two way 5 lane superhighway. Sometimes there are things that slow down traffic, but there are still 4 other lanes to switch to. Or you can take the exit on the right =)

Anyway, I was bored, so I decided to put together clothes I already have and probably dont wear into some type of wearable something. Havent been much into writing lately, or drawing...but this was a fun time filler =) L hate shorts, fyi. And i love long sleeves and pants, even in summer. And leopard print. Sue me. 















Sunday, January 10, 2010

The Climb (SOTSK thought)

Hand in hand,
hand in mine,
my hand was
taken from me,
and I gave it up,
gave it away without a thought.
Its you and I from here,
from here we go,
to slip, to fall, to hold on,
to falter, yes, but hand in hand,
to let go, no, its you and I from here and
we will want to break,
and we will
want to let go,
but one will hold on, when a bond releases
and one will hold tighter,
when one beleives that its time to let go,
but together, we go,
its you and I from here,
to hold you when you cant hold yourself,
to hand on when your ground is moving beneath your feet
while mine stand stable, I will hold you
because
its you and I from here

Sunday, October 18, 2009

I've come to realize that...

1. I've come to realize that my chest.....
Is bigger than I thought, but a part of who I am.

2. I've come to realize that my job
rewards me in ways I didnt know

3. I've come to realize that when I'm driving...
I relax and zone out of problems and into the road

4. I've come to realize that I need....
to open myself up more, and not be so negative

5. I've come to realize that I have lost...
parts of me that I cant get back, but also parts that I dont want back =)

6. I've come to realize that I HATE it when...
people try too hard to be who they arent, when people would like the "real" them better.

7. I've come to realize that if I'm drunk...
I am still the sober one

8. I've come to realize that money…
is only super important if you need to keep up an image. I would love to have it for comfort, but its not what defines me

9. I've come to realize that certain people...
really have seasons in your life, but they do/did have a purpose in your maturation

10. I've come to realize that I'll always...
think I am right, but I am learning to open my mind up to other intelligent perspectives

11. I've come to realize that my sibling(s)…
have watched me grow, and I have watched them, and I love them even with their quirks LOL

12. I've come to realize that MY mom…
is one of my best friends and really has my best interest at heart, unless she is trying to share food, then she doesnt want to be my friend LOL

13. I've come to realize that my cell phone..
wasnt that important and held me to a lot of drama that I have then since relesed by being in Korea. Sometimes it is better for everyone to not have access to you on THEIR time.

14. I've come to realize that when I woke up this morning…
I was excited to start my day

15. I've come to realize that before i go to sleep...
I usually pass out before I have the chance to realize something before I go to sleep

16. I've come to realize that right now I am thinking...
I am going home in a few days!

17.
I've come to realize that my dad…
Is human and has learned from what he was taught, and that he does try and is proud of me.

18. I've come to realize that when I get on Facebook...
I feel like I am still at home

19. I've come to realize that today..
was a good day even though I still have lesson plans to finish

20. I've come to realize that tonight...
is a blessing

22. I've come to realize that I really want to...
have a family of my own and watch my own kids grow

23. I've come to realize that the person who is most likely to re-post this is...
Myka, maybe lol. No, London =)

24. I've come to realize that life...
"ain't meant to come around twice, thats why I gotta get it right," or at least live it to the fullest and learn from past mistakes

25. I've come to realize that this weekend...
I was ok with staying in my house for the most part

26. I've realized the best music to listen to when I am upset...
is music that can spark creativity and allow me to write

27. I've come to realize that my friends...
arent my friends, the real ones are family (I'd do anything for them and more than likely, it has been shown), and the ones who aren't, aren't friends.

28. I've come to realize that this year...
is a once in a lifetime experience, so I need to make the most of it

29. I've come to realize that my ex...
was young, and so was I. No sense in holding grudges

30. I've come to realize that maybe I should...
Stop thinking so hard about some things, and harder about others

31. I've come to realize that I love...
so much, so many, and so hard

32. I've come to realize that I don't understand...
Why I do more for other people than I do for myself

33. I've come to realize that my past...
cant change, only my future can, and if people hold you to that, they have issues of their own and are not growing themselves

34. I've come to realize that parties...
are for kids...Same people, same outfits, same attempts at "fun"...I'm over it, just me.

35. I've come to realize that that....
I grew up but am not there yet...Work in Progress =)

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

My Lifes Playlist

So this is really random, but my shuffle was hitting, and some songs came on that remind me of various individuals or occasions, and some people apparently have a lot of songs...Hee Hee

“Freeze”- T-Pain and Chris Brown reminds me of Courtney-We randomly had a “lifted” dancing session to this song and repeated it when Tarita came in the house. We were GETTTTTTING it. HARD

“Pop, lock, and drop it Remix”- MYKA AND TARITA! The cruise, and the picture of our “lady friend” which spontaneously caused the singing of “Uh HUH, uh huh- Uh uh, AAAH HA HA every single time we went to our cabin, for 7 days straight....

“Walking on the Moon”- Ab- Yo ass kept requesting this song, but I get it now, took a sec =)

“Poppin”- Chris Brown-Lionel- First time I heard the song was in the car with you, during the good old days LOL, and you kept it on repeat.

“Shake That”- Too short- Courtney- because of the little dance I know you will never forget LMAO.

“Hustlin”, Rick Ross- Lauren- Yo ass swore you were sayin hustlin, but you were saying Hustle-ING.

“Ms. New Booty”- Tarita “ It is a love song! Like, he REALLY loves her! He FOUND HER!” lol

“Winner”-Chris Brown- Erica and Christian -the good/bad LAR days- “i hear the DIIIING” oh, and “ooo-oo-oo-oo-oooooh, Yeeeahh.” Oh, and old man ass, old monkey ass, ...LOL

The whole Carter - Brit Lacey-Freshman year rides to my crib when parents were out of town, never gonna forget.

“White Tee”-Brit Lacey, Erica, Ryan- “He walk in his white tee” LOL

Whole Get Lifted John Legend album- Marlon- LMAO..wasnt a song in the bunch LOL.

Usher-”Burn”- Khandi, Drea, Tasha, Jazzy- The end of Senior year, random car adventures (and thefts) LOL

“I don't wanna know”-Mario Winans- Khandi- I CANNOT listen to that song without thinking about you...and how you would change the names up. LOL

“Love”- Kelly Rowland- Kylie- You made up a dance in 807 to this, and made me love the song. Bet you dont even remember!

“Money on my Mind” Lil Wayne- Marica, your rendition, changed to “bunny on my mind”. I still cant stand you for that LOL

“Damaged”-Danity Kane- Marcia and Phillip- Dancing in the truck, or something like that. I think y'all did it first, then showed me when I got in. Either way, y'all hit that! Ha.

“Helena”, My Chemical Romance, and Paramore, “Misery Business”- Marlon, the ONLY other person who vibes out like CRAZY when the song comes on.

TI-”What You Know About That”- Jeffie! I think y'all first “official” stroll after your not-a- probate-because-people-don
't-have-those was this, cuz I always think of you. Gotta be something!

“Sexy Back” Erica's 807 bathroom song LOL.

“Apologize” Alitra- Your beauti-full dance before you were crowned Miss Black and Gold =)

“Stingy” Ginuwine- Renoir- Your crazy jealous self lol...I dont even know if you remember singing this after I would get pissed at your for your insanity.

“4 page letter” Aaliyah- Tara, Stormie, Crystal- Sleep overs at Tara's house, you remember the dance? LOL throw way back to 4th grade, and I still “bounce” every time I hear it LOL.

“Like you” Bow Wow and Ciara- Kambium, Erica, Christian- “Iaintneverhadsomebodyshowmeallthethingsthatyouhaveshownmeandthespecialwayifeelwhenyouholdmewegonealwaysbetogethrbabythatswhatyoutoldme, and I believe it, cuz I aint never had nobody do me like YO ASS” lol. That, and “Kam, Bam Baaam” to the tune of Trey
Songz's “Girl, Tonight”. Erica and Chrissy had a ball with you Kam LOL.

“Cyclone” Baby Bash- DREA and your Cyclone dance! Oh boy, Hilarity! That and Ciare “Oh”. You know you need to be on Dance Crew! Alone! LOL.

Lupe Fiasco- Evan. That's how you became my child, Gotta love it.

Think that is all for now. I know Know KNOW I am forgetting some, but these I have heard recently! Some of the best times in life! Glad you were a part of it =)

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Trust

They say, they say trust is a must,
that’s why she never gave it up, up
up and away, away went that trust, that trust
once she gave it up.

Once she gave it up she felt stuck in the muck,
in the glue that was love, like a fool, she was stuck,
stuck, when she gave up her trust.

Trust, it was a struggle,
a struggle of trust, to move, to
win, to trust and not go bust,
but busted

was the outcome of trust, her trust,
the whole thing, the whole thing it went bust,
it went up in flames,
in flames it was engulfed, and the flames turned to fuss,
so she fussed and it burned while she
fussed

while trying to hold on to trust, to keep it fresh, keep it new
keep it clean, and not let it rust,
or get clouded with dust from not being brushed,
being clean, with no rust.

But the brush had some dust,
and it caked on the dust, on the rust, made a crust,
and it crumbled and it rushed, rushed away in a gust

That’s what happened to the trust, what happened to us,
us diminished with each sign of lust, lust for another, another
big bust, he must, really like busts, so she cursed
and she fussed
and she cried
while the tears turned to rust,
and she brushed off
her shoulders and she buried her trust,
because buried trust is a must.

Monday, February 23, 2009

25

Rules are: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.

(To do this, go to "notes" under tabs on your profile page, paste these instructions in the body of the note, type your 25 random things, tag 25 people (in the right hand corner of the app) then click publish.)

1. I really love songs with "La" in it. It is this odd thing that makes me really happy on the inside. For example, the Elmo's world song, J. Holiday "La", Rihanna "La la la", and any other song like them, I will listen to just because of that. Lala la

2. I do not really like scary movies, ever since I was around 7 or 8. When I was younger, a person who I will not mention made me watch Pet Cemetery at my cousins house, and then when we went home sang the scary/odd theme song and chased me around acting like the undead until my mother came home. I probably should watch it to get over it.

3. I love my friends, I have so many different people in my life who literally add to it in very different ways. They range from to hustlers, skateboarders, to Hawks dancers to hairdressers, to modern dancers, to teachers, to Deltas, to VanillaBoras to promoters, to potheads, to prudes, and i love them all individually different from others.

4. 807 was the best/worst experience of my life as well. I thought about what Erica could have meant by that, and it wend down, from fights, to fights, lol, to strippers, to puppies, to boyfriends, to "just friends" and back, and from each experience and each day, a lesson was learned.

5. I won the basketball MVP my freshman year at TF North High school, and would have gotten it Sophomore year if I didn't move to HF...In which I purposely didn't make the team in protest to my mother for making me move with 3 games left in the season. I used to love love basketball, watching and playing it, but its getting kind of boring, like LeBron is a beast, and Kobe is a monster, and there are many rising stars, but um, as a whole, yawn. Sorta like football more now. Stuff happens. Still dont quite underdig baseball tho.

6. If I have twins, their names are going to be Zoe and Zaib (if they are a boy and a girl)

7. If and when I ever get married, I am gonna have a shit load of bridesmaids, and how does the bride get men in? Does that mean the groom gotta cut back? Aww man, I have a lot of friends that I would want to share in my [hypothetical] joy. The colors will be something like black with say, teal, or lilac, or grey, or everybody do what you wanna do

8. I really wish I could change the world. A lot of times, i get upset thinking about how many misinformed people there are in the world. The status of our communities in many respects is questionable, and it isnt even our fault, and we cant see the changes that need to be made for our betterment because we are set in our ways. If we all got on our shit, for REAL, we would be unstoppable, in every respect.

9. I miss the days when all of my college friends got along. There was a lot lot lot of drama, which is to be expected in a group of feisty, pretty girls, but as gemstones said, "I wouldnt change a thing about it". You all know what I mean, you know of the fun and the drama, but we wouldnt be who we are without it.

10. Erica is a clown for life. I met her dancing in FAR basement freshman year, when campus was fun, and we been thru hella ups and even more downs, but you are a dear. Alitra is a narcoleptic, and it is the best thing ever. She slept through a house intrusion, yeah, its major. Myka is and will forever be the baby, it just works out that way, but sometimes she is the most mature. And Niecycousinsisterfriend, right!

11. I love pants, she is the best friend a girl could ever have, and I feel like i can be myself around her if no one else. Love of my life or somethng (No homo). I love my other BF Jazzy, been around since 4th grade, and even tho we don't talk everyday, i know she is someone i can rely on and vice-versa

12. I have met some of the most influential people in my life on the AUC campus. I keep in contact with people who I may have met on a weekend, but have become lifelong friends. The crazy thing is, I cant imagine my life without them, love you all!

13. Jeffie is really the love of my life, I dont know how we became so close, but he is another person I couldnt function without, even tho no one understands what he says when he speaks. He will be major, and I heart him.

14. FTD is the best group of guys a girl could ever have. I feel like one of the guys on numerous occasions, and apparently I shouldn't, because I am a girl, but in my head, it is sometimes hard to make that distinction. We each have our own story together, but I would do anything for any one of them and they know it. Some of the funniest shit ever happened in their presence, included but not limited to "What you need is invisaline", "did she hit her head on the fan", "Saggy back gorilla", fist fights, arguments, slanty floors and cookouts. Love yall!

15. I have no clue what my life holds for me, but I am trying to live day by day. I have so many things i want to do, or that I could do, but to tie all of my talents together is going to be a struggle. Let me know if anyone needs poetry, paintings, or advice, Im pretty good at those things lol.

16. I cant dance, but you all knew that. I love Hip-Notic dance team, the first attempt I ever really made at dance.

17. I love hate my brother. We have been thru a lot, he used to make me do things i really didnt want to, but they proved to acutally be interesting once i did them wihtout his prodding. I know he was/is looking out for me. Good stuff, bro.

18. I think I love too many people, because i keep thinking about new ones who deserve a number- 18 belongs to Evan! He is a weirdo whacko rapper skateboarding padupping idiot who saved my life this year and didnt even know it, so...hats to you son. I still shitted on ur wall.

19. I am in love with Wasalu Muhammad Jaco. His lyrical ability is redamndiculous, if you sit and listen to the same song 5 times, each time you will hear something different, even if you already knew every single word. It is sick, and I wouldnt eat for a month if i had to use that money for a concert ticket. Im a Fanatic.

20. I got random roommates this year, aside from Tarita, and they have really made me grow up. Each has a special place in my life, and at first, we didnt get along, but now, I am the mom, tarita is the aunt, and the other two are the children. Literally. You would swear I birthed the things.

21. I like the girls of the FofF, minus one plus one, or something....LOL. And Gym teachers.

22. I have a bad habit of displacing my emotions. I dont like people to think I care about them in many cases, but thats because I have had my heart and my regular good old feelings hurt by too many close people. So if you ever wondered why I act/do/say things, thats probably why. i know, everyone has a story, but my pain is mine, and thats how I deal. Lo siento

23. I love Tarita J. P, because she is the funniest creature created, in addition to the fact that her resume pretty much shits on everyone elses. This has been a great year, and will continue to be one. Great 1905 memories, cuz naked men in the living room will never ever be forgotten, or cameras being finito, or cu-cu-cu cu as you air play the guitar while watching the grammys. Disturbing LMAO

24. I love to read, and have read hella complete series of books. I used to read more than watch tv, and read every Hardy Boys, Nancy Drew, and Goosebumps book and a lot of other books, but i read all of those as a kid.

25. Im odd. I used to eat crayons as a child, even tried to be slick and only eat the white ones. And I only ate Crayola, the other ones didn't taste right. Sometimes, i get cravings for crayons, odd, I know.

26. I love people who make up their own languages and would also love to hire me for their private detective agency, cuz I can find out everyone's info...Ha...Serve, give life, trash, and all the stuff I have been left out of...